So I’m 25 now, whatever that means.
My birthday was New Years Eve and I purposely didn’t do another goal/resolution post because my only goal this year is to live. To live fully and happily without trying to plan out every step of the way. I am so proud of what I’ve accomplished this past year and I don’t plan to slow down — but I really do need to relax a bit.
I have this really bad habit of comparing my life and levels of success to people on the internet and I have to constantly remind myself that 1) you cannot compare your beginning to someone else’s middle and 2) just like instagram — basically no one’s life ACTUALLY looks the way it does online.
It’s funny being 25 in some ways I feel like I know myself better than ever and in others I’m still completely lost. I do feel like I’ve grown immensely since my college days. It’s kinda like that quote copy copy copy what you love and then at the end you’ll find yourself. I spent years duplicating things I liked—specifically editorial/graphic design things–and now I feel like my style is evolving into something that really feels like me… but I’m kinda hyper-aware of it. so before I was doing things I liked, but that weren’t 100% me and now it’s like I’m too aware of who I am and maintaining my brand… and basically now I’m ready to just live and be me without being conscious of myself. (gawd. that sounds a little crazy ha!)
I’ve loved collaging since I was a kid and I think that’s why I’ve always gravitated towards tumblr and pinterest. I cannot just say ONE thing is me. Not one style or one image or item. I’m like 10 things selected in such a way for strange reasons that feel good to me and are viewed all at once. A constant curation.
This entire year ended up being about exploration and learning. I did so many things for the first time and changed my mind more times than I’d like to admit. But when I really look back at everything I did this year and everything I accomplished myself I have to say this is definitely one of the best years of my life so far. Everything happens for a reason. I know. It’s cliche but it’s so true and it just feels good to believe that everything will work out and just go with the flow.
*the shot of me was captured by my friend maximushka — an amazing bucket list experience.