Posts by: Ciara Bird


  • Posted 15th November 2015


Well looky here. A couple of pictures brought me out of my blogging coma. I’ve been pretty “offline” lately, not spending much time on blogs or my personal instagram. Its just getting so saturated and redundant, my brain needs a break from the constant staged visual of everyones lives and everything in general. It’s all beginning to look the same to me, I’m not getting a jolt of inspiration or awakening from anything online these days.

I’m trying to spend more time just living, enjoying my life and the things I worked so hard for. 2015 has been such a breezy relaxing year. I’m really excited about my current position and upcoming projects… 2016 is going to be magical (glitter emoji).


  • Posted 16th May 2015

Daydream delusion
Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like two branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

before sunrise.


  • Posted 13th May 2015

I HAD to repost this from Miss Moss. I am falling to pieces over Paloma Wool‘s most recent collection (of course its No. 4). so good. ordering one of everything immediately.
this collection is what my dreams are made of. i just want to live inside it. everything matisse and picasso.


  • Posted 27th February 2015

God, I agree so much.

A week after debuting his fall-winter 2015 collection inspired by Diana Vreeland, Vogue UK featured an interview with American designer Marc Jacobs by Suzy Menkes. In the interview, he talks about young designers, the new collection and social media.

“You know, I am an older person now, I’m going to be 52 in a couple of months,” Jacobs says. “But I look at young fashion and it seems like it’s all the same – the idea of what is edgy or cool. It’s style with no substance; it doesn’t really seem born of anything. I don’t see the rebellion or edge in it. It just looks like a cliche: salad oil in the hair, Frankenstein shoes and the trappings of punk and all these other thing.”

He also goes on to take an anti social media stance. “I am so appalled by the whole social media thing,” he says. “I don’t get it, it doesn’t appeal to me, neither does a computer, or working on a laptop. I don’t want to read a book on a device. I like a book with a hard cover, and text on a piece of paper.

Reposted from FGR


  • Posted 25th February 2015

I’m in LOVE with Hotel Covell, a new 5-suite boutique hotel in Los Feliz! I’m gonna try to go for drinks next week and steal inspiration for decorating our new place.

I discovered it on Sight Unseen, and am equally/obviously also obsessed with the interior designer, Sally Breer.
my god. so so good.


  • Posted 21st February 2015

During my time in Italy I read, An Italian Affair by Laura Fraser. It was the perfect romantic tale to visualize and set the mood while exploring and hilariously, the main character also chose to read books set in the places she traveled to.

Here are a few of my favorite passages:

And it pleased Him that this love of mine,
whose warmth exceeded all others, and which had stood firm
and unyielding against all the pressures of good intention,
helpful advice, and the risk of danger and open scandal,
should in the course of time diminish of its own accord.
So that now, all that is left of it in my mind is the delectable
feeling which Love habitually reserves for those who
refrain from venturing too far upon its deepest waters.
And thus what was once a source of pain has now become,
having shed all discomfort, an abiding sensation of pleasure.


You board your boat, the boat to Ischia, and climb to the top deck, where the air is fresh and cool, the sun sinking behind the silhouetted island in the distance. Traveling by boat is romantic, pulling you away from shore, leaving a vast emptiness of water between your old life and an entirely new place.

The problem with Americans, he says, is they think a little affair will destroy a marriage. How can they be so claustrophobic? It puts far too much pressure on the marriage. That’s what will ruin a marriage.

“After thirty-six years you decide to take up smoking now?” he asks. You smile and tell him it’s all his fault. “When I get back,” you say, “I’m going to have to find a lover like you.” “Inutile,” he says, and laughs. Your only hope is to teach someone, he says. Then he becomes more serious, avuncular. “You’ll find someone,” he says. “All you need is a man who is older than you and younger than me. A professor of literature who speaks Italian. There must be some of them in San Francisco.” “They’re everywhere,” you say, “like German tourists.”

He says that he himself is not complicated at all. “I’m a simple person,” he says. “I like art, I like women, I like the sea, good food, cigars.” He unwraps the cellophane on a cigar and lights it. “I like pleasure,” he says. He smokes quietly for a moment. “Sometimes,” he says, “my wife thinks I’m too simple.”

You tell the professor you’ve never met an intellectual like him who is so uncomplicated, who seems to have no hidden dark corners in his psyche, though you suspect there are a few he isn’t talking about. He’s so comfortable with himself, seemingly so content with his life. Unlike many of the talented, intelligent men you’ve run into, he isn’t arrogant on the surface with deep insecurities lurking just beneath. He doesn’t seem like he’d ever be threatened by strong, smart women, just amused. He’s easily delighted, and relaxing to be around. You’re glad at least to have a glimpse of that type of man.

“The Decameron tales describe the endless varieties of love—adulterous passion, courtly love, enduring marriages, homosexual love, forbidden love, infatuation. The moral—if you can call it that, and why not—is that finding pleasure is more important than any of the constraints society might put on people’s inclinations to “forgather” together. As one storyteller comments after a tale of adultery, “And by proceeding with the greatest of discretion, they enjoyed their love together on many a later occasion. May God grant that you enjoy yours likewise.”
This, you think, is what Italians read in school instead of The Scarlet Letter. No wonder they’re better at flirting.”

It’s a shame. American men must be superficial. They want youth and beauty right up front in their faces. That isn’t interesting. European men like to discover what’s beautiful about a woman. Every woman is a mystery, and you have to find what makes her most beautiful and gives her the most pleasure.

“Richard Meier,” he says. “Everyone should know that name. Forget about the paintings here, they are mostly second-rate paintings by first-rate artists, or first-rate paintings by second-rate artists. But the architecture is amazing, the building is an extraordinary work of art. This building will last for centuries.”

“You know,” he says, “in order for me to truly relax, I have to be outside my country, and even outside of my language. I can’t relax in French.” “Why?” you ask. He shrugs, and tries to explain. “If I speak French, I might as well be in France. There is an inherent nervousness. I have to get outside of it all.”

“You know, my dear,” he says, stroking your hair. “It isn’t a bad thing to always know that someone on the other side of the world cares about you, that someone is always thinking about you with pleasure.”

“When you go to a place and have an extraordinary experience,” he says, “you can never return.”
“That’s true.”
“I could never return to Ischia,” he says.
“No,” you agree. “Never.”

The professor begins to list his defects. He is a little vain, he says. He doesn’t do well at dinner parties, doesn’t like to make chatty conversation. He dresses too hippie for his wife’s taste. He doesn’t know how to fix anything around the house. He isn’t all that ambitious; if he were really rich, all he would do is travel the world and stay at great hotels.


Europe 07 / Assisi Roma & the Vatican City

  • Posted 21st February 2015

Assisi was amazing. I wish I could’ve spent at least a night there vs just a few hours, but it was one of my favorite little stops. The entire city was cobble stone and felt like a giant olive garden haha. I took tons of touristy pictures and literally COULD not get over the unbelievable view. It looked exactly like every painting of italy I’ve ever seen.
Just before getting to Assisi, we stopped at a small vineyard and got drunk on strawberry wine and chocolate haha. I bought my mom this delicious truffle honey and in hindsight, should have bought a bottle to bring home as well.
On the way to Roma I wrote in my journal that it was so refreshing to get back to the things I love. Observing, reading, writing, seeing new places, listening to music and truly hearing and feeling it. These all seem like normal everyday things, but it’s amazing how life gets in the way and you really cherish having time to just listen to an entire playlist while looking out the window. no responsibilities, no worries. just in the moment.
I’d forgotten how much I loved Rome. I’m SO glad I made myself keep a journal the entire time. I was super OCD about detailing every thing I did each night or morning so I could relive the trip whenever I like. I ate so much pizza and gelato in italy its ridiculous. and by pizza I mean the entire thing, almost every day. gelato like 3x a day hahaha, no shame.

Whenever people ask about my favorite cities, I always say I loved Rome, but it wasn’t what I was expecting. It actually looked the way I imagined Spain ha. and I hated how touristy it was in areas (but this was true in most places) and how many cheesy tourist shops there were, selling the same junk (that was likely made in china) taking up spaces in the beautiful ancient buildings.
I wrote “Rome is so exotic. There are parts that look exactly like a city within a jungle. Deteriorating buildings in the most beautiful colors amidst tons of trees and foliage. The burnt orange, pale pinks and blues, against shades of green, black and cream are my favorite.”
OMG the Vatican. I’m not going to say much about it, because I’m not sure how to even describe how much I enjoyed it. The museum, the history, the Sistine Chapel. St. Peter’s Basilica. ugh. I need to go back, but again it’s something that I feel like I’ll either never return to or wait until I have children to take and share it with, because there are so many other places in Italy and even Rome I’m still dying to visit.
The ceilings and the statues, were hands down my favorite. They had so much emotion, so much pain. and the insane level of perfection and detail. gahhh.. this is the reason I haven’t been properly artgasming hahaha. I need to get back to Europe and have my socks blown off.
Next stop under the tuscan sun.



  • Posted 14th February 2015


Happy Valentine’s Day lovers.


  • Posted 10th February 2015


I’ve been really, really into my tumblr these days. I can feel myself getting back into hyper-artistic mode and hope my new schedule in LA will allow me to dedicate some solid time to making physical works again.

my hands need something to do and my eyes need a break from all these screens.


  • Posted 5th February 2015

I’m having a moment.
and obsessing over these three at the same time. oh and also marissa webb.
joan mitchell / willem de kooning / cy twombly
The scale of these blows my mind. I think they’re all a pretty accurate visual of how I’ve been feeling. extremely excited/nervous/scared/unsure/jazzed/ about moving & wrapping up so many projects and starting 100 more. they all have so much energy. like… i-just-have-to-get-these-colors-and-movements-the-fuck-out-of-me-as-fast-as-i-can.
#repeat. maybe ill go paint (read: finish) a picture.


  • Posted 3rd February 2015

Have you seen La Double J yet!?

I just discovered it via Preston Davis’ blog, Keep it Chic. In short, it is a vintage shopping site that sells one-of-a-kind vintage jewelry and clothing all showcased on J.J. Martin’s uber chic Milan-based friends. BUT!! It’s so much more than just a shopping site. There are 2 sections I’m especially obsessed with; the Legendary Ladies of Milan, and Tour the Homes. So good. Their quirky Street Styled section is pretty bomb as well. Such a fun shopping experience.
“Here, in the School of Sciura, we honor these remarkable women. We study them, we worship them, we learn about them and from them. We try in our small way to emulate them so that hopefully, piano piano, one day, we will grow up to be exactly like them.”


  • Posted 1st February 2015


a pretty incredibly accurate description of myself.. and capricorns in general by susan miller.

Capricorn is the sign of the fair and wise leader, and ruled by Saturn, this sign makes careful decisions that are never done in haste. If you are a Capricorn you may have had to grow up fast when you were little, perhaps because you were the eldest, in charge of helping your mother take care of your younger sisters and brothers. Or maybe events in the family were such that you had to become very realistic and practical quickly. No matter—remarkably, Capricorns tend to live their lives backwards, becoming younger, freer and more spirited with each passing birthday.

Capricorn rules all things that are valuable from the past, such as antiques, landmark buildings and other real estate, estate jewelry, old stamps, Krugerrands and other old coins, valuable autographs—you get the idea. Capricorn covers anything historical, and most Capricorns are history buffs. Also, Capricorn is associated with very big money, whether that require managing family money, overseeing the funds of a behemoth multi-national company, trading client’s stocks and bonds, or being a lawyer related to estate management. Capricorn is not highly emotional, but keeps feelings well-balanced, one reason they do so well in managing money.

Capricorn is reliable, trustworthy, careful, dependable, very practical and realistic (all big reasons for their success), and they are also kind and status-conscious. The last attribute—status-conscious—may have surprised you, but it has to do with the sign’s ambitious need to reach the top of the mountain.

Capricorn women tend to either be very successful in their own right, or marry highly successful, well-known men. Indeed, the woman Capricorn almost always marries well. Family tradition is extremely important to Capricorn, as much as it is to Cancer, and most Capricorn women, no matter how busy they are (and Capricorn women are that for sure), she will always find time to attend her children’s recitals, plays and parent teacher conferences. Most Capricorns enjoy delving into their own ancestral history, or that of their mate. Capricorns are usually concerned with their legacy and reputations, and will fiercely defend their own honor.

Being compared to Kate Middleton, Michelle Obama, and Kate Moss doesn’t hurt either. Read the full post here.

Europe 06 / Verona Venice & Lido di Jesolo

  • Posted 1st February 2015

Verona wasn’t very exciting to me. I only passed through long enough to have some gelato and visit the famous site of Romeo & Juliet. I would love love love to rent a car one day and just drive and drive through Italy at a slow pace. Stopping in small villages, staying longer in some places.

but then we got to venice.
i remember having an immediate sense of deja vu which was crazy but exciting as well. In my journal I wrote: When we arrived in Venice [in a water taxi] I thought I was in a movie, everything was so bright and crystal clear. blindingly white marble. STUNNING architecture.” It was the most beautiful day and I really couldn’t have asked for anything better.
I bought my family each a tiny red glass heart that hopefully they’ll keep forever, so no matter where we all end up we each have one.

We went on a quick tour with a beautiful local named Marina. She told us she was 100% Venetian, and that that was different than being Italian. It really got me thinking about HOW different the world is. She seemed so normal, but I’m sure if we sat and had a conversation, her lifestyle and upbringing is so incredibly different from what I can probably imagine.
We stayed in a small town outside of Venice called, Lido di Jesolo, and although our place wasn’t glamorous— the beach view was incredible. Honestly, more beautiful than the south of france.. in a different way.. the night we went out to walk along the water a storm was coming so the clouds were moving fast and the sun was streaming through in that heavenly way. It made me finally understand the tacky colors used in sunset paintings, although it wasn’t tacky, it was beautiful. There were little crabs the in the water and you could hear a pretty twinkle sound when the waves crashed over the tiny seashells.
Rome in the morning.

Until my next installment.


  • Posted 31st January 2015

The Best of Flair was one of my favorite birthday gifts this year.

It’s been on my wishlist since my time at FLAUNT, when their creative director and co-founder, Jim Turner, showed it to me and explained that FLAIR was what inspired them to start FLAUNT (and that they actually tried to get the name FLAIR) and that there are a lot of qualities about FLAIR that they used as the foundation for FLAUNT, such as always having a double cover, one featuring art and one photography, the use of multiple non-standard types of paper, creative die-cut covers and interior pages, and unique fold-out advertisements and mini-booklets printed within another story.

This was also, believe it or not, one of the first luxury coffee table books I’d seen in person, or paid attention to for that matter. I rememeber the striking red slip-case that held the giant book filled with whimsical images and a look that was far ahead of its time.

So seeing how influential FLAUNT was on my entire editorial style and obsession with independent magazines and the actual ART of creating a magazine — you can only imagine how pressed I’ve been to own a piece of the magazine that inspired them.

The book was always extremely expensive, even on amazon, but a second edition was recently released so I let the beau know it was at the top of my list :) I knew nothing about the editor or how it came to be so it was such a treat to read her introduction and find what kindred spirits we were:
“The birth of FLAIR was one of the happiest events of my life. Jewels, race-horses or yachts were not things I wanted. I jumped at the invitation to create a completely personal new magazine — one that would reveal my full inventiveness, my love of art and literature.” — Fleur Cowles

Sixty years after it ceased publication, FLAIR is still one of the most talked-about and influential magazines ever created. / It is remembered for its innovative design and production quality, it’s superb coverage of the arts and its intuitive discovery of many artists and writers well before they achieved fame and fortune.
The Best of Flair.


  • Posted 31st January 2015

I went to new york the second week in january to art direct half of a photoshoot for Off Broadway Shoes with one of the agencies I work for, MODE. It was a really great experience, but I was especially glad that I had already been to new york and had my chance to explore the city because we were literally in a giant (though beautiful) warehouse in the bronx all day long.

I always love interacting with all of the team members it takes to really pull a shoot together. the prop and wardrobe stylists, HAMU artists, producer, photographer, all the helpful guys, and of course the models.
I was able to squeeze in a few great dinners with friends and the team, a quick trip to the met and mini shopping spree in soho.
Until the next time…


  • Posted 31st January 2015

I thought it was a good idea to start 2015 off with a new designer crush lol which is exactly what happened after I finished reading Roots of Style, the memoirs of Isabel Toledo filled with artwork from her husband, Ruben Toledo.

It was such an inspiring story about love, following your instincts and trusting your individuality and discovering your own personal style signature. Honestly, I wasn’t very familiar with Isabel before reading this. I’d seen Ruben’s work plenty of times and even own a few books he illustrated, but after referencing images of them for a photoshoot, I became intrigued by their style and ordered the book.. and now I will without a doubt be a lifelong fan.

I am always going on (preaching to the choir, I know, I know) about how different the world is now. Social media is a beast that will never die and has changed everything about the way everything happens. I cannot deny that I am obsessed with documenting every detail of my life in a way that our parents were not able to do, but I have to wonder if all that exposure and accessibility to so many things is good?

I love learning about creative people who really grew into who they are from an early age. That recognized the interests they had as a child and how those interests and hobbies morphed into skills that shaped them into the individuals they are today.

Reading about how Isabel and Ruben met and did the whole struggling artist thing in the old New York (that I love to read about) and met developed friendships with iconic artists, designers, editors, etc. through various jobs and mutual friends was so deliciously refreshing, because I feel like that doesn’t happen anymore.

Everyone is a designer, everyone has a magazine, everyone, everyone, everyone. Everything is exclusive and limited edition and one-of-a-kind — which to me makes it seem like nothing is.

I loved reading about their partnership and her first fashion shows and how after many years she decided to jump off the endless wheel of pumping out shows every season so that she could focus on her work and more learning.

I love how she gave herself time to figure out what she was going to do in the begininning. She tried a bunch of different jobs, all while continuing to work on her designs (because it was like breathing) all of which she took little pieces from that helped her significantly in the end. Everything didn’t have a purpose or a plan. It just flowed, like her style. I could go on and on, so I won’t. But here are my favorite quotes:

If you can stay in love and keep your enthusiasm for what you choose to do with your life, you are living well indeed. Always keep in mind that patterns in life repeat themselves, so make a decision to own the patterns you want to keep.

Whether I was making a dress or Ruben was drawing a boat, we had both seen in ourselves, and in each other, that your creativity is your voice. It deserves to be sung often and at the top of your lungs.

You can make no better investment than spending time with your own ideas. Your generosity in granting time to yourself will be well rewarded. Doing this on your own time and by yourself is paramount to learning how to follow your own instincts and discovering your originality. Anything new, whether it’s a dress, a song, or a painting, will not be easily understood right away— sometimes not even by yourself, the creator. You have to feel free to be misunderstood and allow time to work its magic.


…Besides the financial difficulties, Ruben had gotten a bit of advice from Andy Warhol, who told him to quit school. “Just do what you already do, but bigger, and you’ll be fine,” Andy said. So Ruben did just that and never looked back.

After high school graduation, I stopped seeing Ruben as often. It is curious that, when a piece of a pattern in your life suddenly goes missing, every other piece comes undone.

There is no truer fact than that you never really know the person you are with. But, better than knowing is having confidence in not knowing.

Staying raw means leaving room in your life for the unexpected and unperfected. The raw in you is often the most sincere response. There will be enough time later to refine and edit, but to keep the raw flowing, all of your life is a treasure. When your life partner appreciates the raw in you, too, that’s divine.

Art reflects life, and life reflects art, so this was love at its fullest. This very nurturing time was the essence of what it means to grow into yourself and into each other, separate but ver together, and to intertwine like two healthy vines.

We grew up in a very inclusive moment in time, one where the vibrant society around us was truly a diverse, democratize quilt. you were not defined by your age, race, sexual preference, bank account, or education. what counted most was your individual creativity. your personal spark of genius—however you might express it—that was your identity.

During this time, we were caught up in the washing machine of life, being spun round and round by our circumstances. We had no specific mold to break out of, but no time to be idle, either. We were buddy generating our own existence with no time for reflection. We had only the raw ideas. There was no time for perfecting things yet, or even polishing up our thoughts. All of that was yet to come.

All ideas have to start somewhere, and that somewhere is sometimes a very raw place. Your imagination needs to be free of editing. The urge to create should never be burdened with perfection. This is the importance of appreciating every stage of your life and work. You will never be in the exact same place again. These raws seeds you will nurture to fruition soon enough.

Since I was so busy working and sewing my life had to become as simplified and easy as possible. I was the opposite of a high-maintenance woman: I effortlessly adopted the concept of a closet for two and put to work my theory of a “streamlined me.”

When you’re an artist, there is no map to tell you which way to fly or safely net to catch you. Art is about discovery, invention, and the way you define your vision.

While reading on my flight home from New York I wrote this note to myself: it’s not what you do. it’s who it makes you. You are not what you do. I finally understand “the woman I wanted to be” … who knows what I’ll end up doing. Probably something I never thought of, BUT I know it will end up with me traveling around constantly all over the world, with a quiet homebase in a fun city with a great group of friends and a man I love.



  • Posted 11th January 2015


So I’m 25 now, whatever that means.

My birthday was New Years Eve and I purposely didn’t do another goal/resolution post because my only goal this year is to live. To live fully and happily without trying to plan out every step of the way. I am so proud of what I’ve accomplished this past year and I don’t plan to slow down — but I really do need to relax a bit.

I have this really bad habit of comparing my life and levels of success to people on the internet and I have to constantly remind myself that 1) you cannot compare your beginning to someone else’s middle and 2) just like instagram — basically no one’s life ACTUALLY looks the way it does online.

It’s funny being 25 in some ways I feel like I know myself better than ever and in others I’m still completely lost. I do feel like I’ve grown immensely since my college days. It’s kinda like that quote copy copy copy what you love and then at the end you’ll find yourself. I spent years duplicating things I liked—specifically editorial/graphic design things–and now I feel like my style is evolving into something that really feels like me… but I’m kinda hyper-aware of it. so before I was doing things I liked, but that weren’t 100% me and now it’s like I’m too aware of who I am and maintaining my brand… and basically now I’m ready to just live and be me without being conscious of myself. (gawd. that sounds a little crazy ha!)

I’ve loved collaging since I was a kid and I think that’s why I’ve always gravitated towards tumblr and pinterest. I cannot just say ONE thing is me. Not one style or one image or item. I’m like 10 things selected in such a way for strange reasons that feel good to me and are viewed all at once. A constant curation. 

This entire year ended up being about exploration and learning. I did so many things for the first time and changed my mind more times than I’d like to admit. But when I really look back at everything I did this year and everything I accomplished myself I have to say this is definitely one of the best years of my life so far. Everything happens for a reason. I know. It’s cliche but it’s so true and it just feels good to believe that everything will work out and just go with the flow. 


*the shot of me was captured by my friend maximushka — an amazing bucket list experience.


  • Posted 29th December 2014

Things I loved this year.

Personal Style Blog
Maja Wyh / Karla’s Closet / Fashion Toast / Hippie, Hippie — Milkshake! / Gary Pepper

Art/Design Blog
Sketch42 / Miss Moss

Kelly Wearstler / Christine Dovey / Sasha Bikoff

London. Barcelona. NYC.

Jhené Aiko / FKA Twigs / J. Cole / Blood Orange

PORTER / CR Fashion Book / Suitcase

Nina Chanel / Donald Drawbertson / T.S Abe / Delāno Brown

The Grand Budapest Hotel / Mademoiselle C / The Eye Has to Travel / Gone Girl / Beyond the Lights / If I stay

Crazy Rich Asians / Swans, Legends of the Jet Society / Irreverent / Erotic Art 2

Pink green green green black white nude gray + touch of orangey red or spicy yellow


  • Posted 25th December 2014

Merry Christmas!
Looking forward to 2015.

photo diary // los angeles.

  • Posted 23rd December 2014





A touch more personal than usual, my trip to LA this september was blissful. I hadn’t traveled with the beau in a while so it was nice to go to one of my favorite places with him and celebrate his birthday— which was basically a movie. I couldn’t have asked for things to go better. Crusing up the PCH with good music, vibes and him— then crashing on a private beach in Malibu. love.

We basically explored the whole time, visiting places I used to love and new places I’d been dying to see. I cannot wait to get back out there even if it’s just for a few more months before coming back to start on my *big* top secret projects.


  • Posted 22nd December 2014

I keep my head high

I got my wings to carry me

I don’t know freedom

I want my dreams to rescue me

I keep my faith strong

I ask the Lord to follow me

I’ve been unfaithful

I don’t know why you call on me


Apparently, you believe in me, you believe in me

Apparently, you believe in me and I thank you for it

love love loving j.cole’s latest, 2014 forest hills drive.

photodiary // new york.

  • Posted 22nd December 2014







I’m trying to get all of my adventures documented before the year is out.. well most of them ha. I’ve only made it halfway through my europe recaps, but those are fun so I don’t want to rush through. Anyway, I kinda recapped my NY & LA visits here, so this is just the visual that was missing.

I specifically wanted to visit new york before going back to LA since I’d been considering going back to school at NYU and I’m really glad I did. I could definitely see myself there or at least visiting more frequently in the near future :)



  • Posted 21st December 2014


A good friend of mine has an eighteen-volume collection of vintage Vogue and Harper’s Bazaar and let me borrow one to flip through. I was amazed at how classic and chic the advertisements and editorials were. Almost everything was illustrated— total works of art. there were at least 10 pages I wanted to tear out and hang on my wall.

These are all from Vogue 1947.


  • Posted 21st December 2014


Beyond the Lights is definitely one of my new favorite movies.


  • Posted 12th December 2014

I left the show feeling so inspired and refreshed. My traveling it starting to become so addicting. I get a rush every time I go somewhere new, I never want to stop. Basel in particular though gave me so many ideas I feel like I cannot execute them fast enough, changing plans again, pushing me further. I love it.
ARTrepreneur Session Three with Delano Brown was surprisingly good. All I knew about it was the snippets I’d seen on insta and could round up online. I’m not going to sugar coat it, the event didn’t start on a good note at all — there were quite a few things I was annoyed about upfront BUT when I say his talk completely made up for it I’m not exaggerating. It was so refreshing to hear from a young guy in his position with his style and sense talk about his story and his ideas and just wow. I was really impressed. I look forward to seeing where his career goes from here.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t thinking at all and didn’t capture the names and artists of all the work I photographed, so if you know or want credit please email me!
Part 1.


  • Posted 12th December 2014

ahh art basel miami beach 2014. how can i describe you.

I had the BEST time. Per usual, I really didn’t have any idea what to expect. I understood the show and concept of everything since I’ve been only hearing about it for years, but actually being there in the middle of all of the excitement. so amazing. and I saw art, lots and lots of it. incredibly satisfying art. There have been comments about how commercial Art Basel Miami is becoming, but I don’t see it falling off any time soon. The world needs events like this to exist. The energy was trippy everywhere we went.
We ended up going to the Wynwood Walls & Design District, Art Basel, UNTITLED, Mana Contemporary, and a slew of parties including ARTrepreneur Session Three by Delano Brown. I’m really really bummed I missed the SCOPE and Design Miami shows, but next year we’ll plan buffer days instead of arriving and leaving the first and last days of the shows.
Unfortunately, I wasn’t thinking at all and didn’t capture the names and artists of all the work I photographed, so if you know or want credit please email me!
Part 2.

Europe 05 / Switzerland

  • Posted 22nd November 2014

Since I’m going to Art Basel in two weeks I figured it a good time to pick back up my european adventure memoirs. I left off at Germany and from there traveled through Switzerland which turned out to be the most visually stunning and unimaginable place ever. Switzerland was a sleepy favorite of the trip. I say that because I constantly forget to tell people how much I loved it. and from a solo travel perspective, it was one of the only countries I truly spent time completely alone.
I literally kept saying, “i’m not really seeing this. it’s not real.” I thought I was in avatar the whole time, ha. In my journal I wrote: “5/26/14, Even when I stand and stare trying to take it in, it doesn’t look real. the air is so crisp here. 5/28/14, The world really is so beautiful. like how can you live your whole life without seeing things like this?”
I texted a good friend from home when I found out I’d be able to spend the day in Basel and he told me I absolutely COULD NOT MISS the Gerhard Richter exhibiton at the Fondation Beyeler. So I didn’t. I took a train from Lucerne where we were staying to Basel and spent the day exploring. it was mesmerizing.

[From the exhibition book, Gerhard Richter Pictures/Series] “In the course of his sixty-year career Richter has produced an oeuvre that has accorded him a place as one of the most influential and successful artists of the twentieth and twenty-first centuries. […] He is rightly celebrated worldwide as an outstanding figure, arguably the most important painter of our times.”

sometimes i really wish i’d spent more time in art school so I could explain things the way I see and feel them. I always feel lost for words, but I feel so deeply sometimes I wish I could just say what it is I’m really thinking… in a way that more than only just describes it. yahh back to Switzerland. In my journal I described Basel as “Paris meets Amsterdam” based on my short time in all 3 places I think it fits, but I’d need to spend time there again to see if I still agree.
In one of the books I read during the trip—that I’ll get into further when I write about Italy—there was a quote by the male character that said, “when you go to a place and have an extraordinary experience, you can never return.” That might be the case with Switzerland for me. As dream-like as it was, I’m not sure if I’d want to travel there again and change my memories.



  • Posted 22nd November 2014

The High Priestess of Fashion.

allure” is a word very few people use nowadays, but it’s something that exists. allure holds you doesn’t it? whether it’s a gaze or a glance in the street or a face in the crowd, someone sitting opposite you at lunch… you are held.
style was a standard. didn’t hurt anyone… but you gotta have style. it helps you get down the stairs. it helps you get up in the morning. it’s a way of life. without it you’re nobody. i’m not talking about lots of clothes.
now brodovitch was the tutor of all these people of harper’s bazaar of layout, and many of them had gone to his classes at night. he was a very remarkable man, he loved his white space, he loved empty pages-oh, he couldn’t stand me. i mean, i wanted, of course, to put in as much as possible. i only wanted fashion.

anyone who’s afraid and does not search and give as much as possible to the world of pleasure is a totally ignorant person. we were put here for the joy of it, for the hell of it, and it’s all here now; nothing has been taken away. it’s a question of creating it.
style: all who have it share one thing—originality.
can you tell I LIVE for diana vreeland!? i mean. she’s just wonderful. hideous and marvelous. in her documentary “the eye has to travel” there was a quote about her that went something like “she was never a very beautiful woman and she was never a very wealthy woman, but she created beauty and wealth.”


all quotes from diana’s book, the eye has to travel.


  • Posted 15th November 2014

Beauty is boring.

I have this crazy obsession with people (women) that have their own definition of style and what’s chic.. Especially older women. To me they are the true tastemakers. Completely unaffected by trends. Michèle Lamy, wife & muse of Rick Owens is certainly one of those people. I’d seen pictures of her before, but never knew anything about her or who she was until I read this article via the Manrepeller and now I’m obsessed and just want to know everything.
So so good. Here are my favorite parts from the interview:

Nick Axelrod: Did you always wear black, even as a child?
Michèle Lamy: First, I don’t always wear black. I
often wear black. As a child, I was in boarding school in the French Alps, and I was in uniform, which was dark navy. I always think of darker things to wear — the eyes have to be brighter than the clothes. There’s something about wearing bright colors that is masking who you are.

NA: Articles always call you a “muse”…
ML: Before, this name was making me pissed off…

NA: Why?
ML: Because there’s this sense that you’re just there… But then, it’s a word that covers everything in a way.
NA: How do you pick out what you’ll wear in the morning?
ML: There are no rules. It’s always tights, a t-shirt, and then something over it. It changes, but it doesn’t change every day. I’ll wear mainly the same thing for three months, and then I change to another jacket. I don’t know. It depends, also, if it’s cold or not.

NA: Why do you have to do the line everyday?
ML: That, I don’t know. I don’t know if it was something aesthetic or if, instinctively, I feel more proportionate like this. I don’t know. But I know that I don’t feel good without it.

NA: You inspire a lot of people’s style — people probably tell you that all the time. Are there people who inspire your style?
ML: I admire a lot of people that have their own style, but I don’t think… It has to come from you, the way you are. It’s in your head. Like I was telling you, I was very impressed by the older women in Tunisia, North Africa. I admire them. When I look at myself, I think I look like this now. And I like the style of Marlene Dietrich, but I’m not at all [like] Marlene Dietrich. I’m an old soul, and I always try to think that there is no time.

NA: You’re an old soul. But what’s not old is your grill — it’s very modern, very young.
ML: Are you crazy? Golden teeth, that’s very old, with the gypsies and everything.

NA: Good point.
ML: You are too young!


photos via tumblr


  • Posted 15th November 2014

like. I dont really have words (per usual) to describe how INSANELY happy this space makes me so im not even going to try. just relish in it’s perfectness. I mean how often do you see black & yellow together in an amazing way in someone’s home? Bravo Sarah Lavoine, Bravo.
Images via Homeadore.


  • Posted 31st October 2014

Discovered this on Sketch42 and it pretty much made my day.

“For many years I’ve always felt like painting was something that I wanted to do, but I never had time to do,” Snoop explains. “Painting gives me an emotion like no other. I could cry while I’m painting. I can laugh while I’m painting. I can be serious while I’m painting. I don’t have no parameters. When I’m rapping there’s certain things I can’t do. When I’m acting there’s certain things I can’t do. There’s certain things I won’t do. But with the painting, there’s no limit.”

“I know that I’m an artist, I know that my paintings mean something and people are going to be interested in them and they’re gonna want to buy them, and, you know, have them hanging up on their walls in their favorite spots because it’s an expression of somebody who has been giving the truth from day one.”

“I definitely gotta have a blunt, because the blunt is inspiration to the creation.”

A few other articles I’ve loved this week:
How to live like a motherf**ker
The iPhone 6 is Basic
Old Masters: After 80, some people don’t retire. They reign.

Happy Halloween!


  • Posted 31st October 2014

“I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of nonfeeling, or stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out. To learn and think: to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.”
-The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath


  • Posted 19th October 2014


wow. so let me brush the dust off of my dear blog. I’ve been so cliché-ly busy its obnoxious. and when I’m not busy all i want to do is lay around and revel in my unbusi-ness.

since being awol, I went to NY (pause. for the first time.) and Los Angeles.. bought at least 20 new books/zines/mags and have almost completed the 5th volume of four.

On a new and also unsurprising note. I’ve officially decided to head back to la with the beau. for real this time. in february.


It’s hilarious to me the way I always glamorize LA when I’m in Charlotte and I romanticize Charlotte when I’m in LA. but the truth is, Charlotte really cannot do anything for me. and when I get super close to putting my original plan into effect… I freak out as if I’m having a baby.. because maybe I’m scared of commitment or being tied down.. or that I’m throwing away the opportunity to be something amazing by staying in this finance-obsessed, same-track-mind, no-truly-original-ideas town. (going in huh.)

I went to an art event the other night that just kinda bored me to death. it was all 40+ (which there is nothing wrong with) but I just felt like it was all too stuffy. where were all the young people! the cool but still sophisticated and unique (without trying) creatives!? its like they were trying to disguise their agenda ($$) by calling it an art show. #newslaves.

fast forward.. i was just catching up on a few of my favorite blogs and came across the most interesting (to me) interview on FvF with LA based book seller / art dealer Jonathan Brown. i always feel like the universe gives me these little nuggets when I’m in deep thought / decision making:

What made you want to move to Los Angeles?
I moved to Los Angeles primarily because New York lost its effervescence for me. The things in New York that seemed happenstance or the things that people always talk about – how interesting, exciting and varied it is – became cliché to me. My grandparents had a lingerie company in Hollywood, so I grew up coming out here. I loved Los Angeles and thought it was glamorous. I loved the balmy evenings with night blooming jasmine. I loved the majesty of California as a state. It was in direct contrast to where I grew up, which was a small, New England town.

I lived in New York for a long time too, and I loved living there. But I believe when you begin to doubt it or think you want to leave, it starts showing you the door.
I agree with that. New York can be a city of narcissists, and it can be a trap. It’s good for doing business because New Yorkers are consumers. All of the talent from all over the world goes to New York and gets consumed, but you need to leave to make your art, to go create somewhere else. A lot of the great things in New York come from different places. When you’re living there, it doesn’t wait for you to figure out what you’re doing with your life. You don’t have time to think about it or explore your options. If you don’t make up your mind, New York will make up your mind for you very quickly.

So how did you end up creating LEADAPRON?
When I was at the tail end of my career in neuroscience, I started working with booksellers in my spare time. I worked in their booths at fairs, they’d fly me to Paris and New York, and I’d help out. I found it to be very romantic. Here is a group of people who are interested in ideas – the promotion of ideas, the preservation of ideas – and they sell books. At the end of the night they go out for a wonderful meal and talk about ideas. It was a way to have that kind of lifestyle, and they were all their own bosses. It was a way to have a thoughtful life of the mind and also feel like you’re promoting culture and keeping the culture alive. That’s where the name LEADAPRON came from.

read the full interview here.

Synopsis. continue with original plan. eventually. possibly 15 years from now lol. don’t move to new york with the intention of trying to figure out what i want to do or it will spit me out.

and. go back to LA.

and i LOVE talking about ideas. like its the main reason I’m terrible at small talk because i couldn’t care less about random meaningless basic stuff. but i can go on and on about ideas with someone that also has ideas!?

sounds like a plan to me. and the booksellers. they must be my people.

What does it mean?
The idea is that everybody who wears an apron is a worker, whether they’re a craftsperson, tradesperson, a waitress, someone who works with horses, a sculptor, a newspaper delivery man, a cobbler – they’re the people that make the objects or items that furnish the culture. The people that furnish the culture drive the civilization. When we look back on ancient Egypt and hieroglyphs and the scarabs – I happen to be very interested in ancient Egypt so I’m bringing it up as a reference – when we look back at the jewels they made and how sophisticated they were, we’re really looking at those craftspeople and tradespeople. It gives us insight into a civilization, which is gone. That is the apron part.

omg. and he’s interested in ancient egypt. definitely my people.

and just to make him possibly a little bit cooler…

Was there one particular book or object that sparked it all?
I had all of Basquiat’s personal items because I used to date his last girlfriend. I had his wallet, his coat, a toaster he made. I had very unusual items, and I started getting collectors and clients. A client told me that as long as I was patient, everything would come to me. Now, I build libraries for people.

How do you think that LA’s changed since you first moved here? It seems to be getting more attention than usual lately. I’m curious as to what you think about that.
When I left New York, all of my friends said, “Why would you move to LA? It’s this barren wasteland with a bunch of vapid people…” I said, “You’ll see, in about ten years you’ll all be asking me to help find you a place out here.” In the last year or two, it seems like it’s changed dramatically. There’s a lot more industry, and it’s the new capitol of the art world. It’s still the wild, wild, west – anything goes – a place where you can create your own life. It’s still possible to create a life here based on an idea.

there you have it my friends.
anything goes. a place where you can create your own life. BASED ON AN IDEA.


  • Posted 30th August 2014

I finally got around to reading Letters, to the Men I have Loved, by new author, actress, poet Mirtha Michelle Castro Marmol… and I must say I really enjoyed it! It was so beautifully written. these simple thoughts and emotions that all women must have had and experienced eloquently expressed in short letters and poems categorized by all stages of a relationship. lust, love, and wisdom to forgiveness, change, resentment and hope.

A few of my favorite passages…

“But if it weren’t for those mistakes I wouldn’t have seen the beauty in me. I wouldn’t have awoken the goddess that lives in me. you see, goddesses although immortal were all flawed. they were all a bit extreme at their calling, and they were all betrayed and hurt at some point. they were even considered devious but what made them unique was their strength. they did not give up. their circumstances did not deter them from their purpose or bestowing their gifts to humans. whether it was the gift of love, art, wisdom, family, intelligence, beauty or war. they gave gifts to whomever they encountered. i pray my mistakes, my loves and my pains be turned into gifts. let those gifts serve as motivation that there is strength in each and every once of us, no matter how big the ordeal has been. i pray my gifts live as myths in words with whomever i encounter, and for my words to live beyond the chambers of mortality…”

“when I met you if someone would have told me then I was going to fall in love with you, I think I would have laughed in their face. you were only supposed to be fun, an experimental phase in my young life, but life surprised me and you were fire. a fire that consumed me, and a fire that burned me. a fire that ignited my first feelings of anger, and pity, but also one of love, and in that you became a creative muse of sorts in my life. words would flow from my heart to paper, naturally. and you never knew. Ironically later you would say I was your muse.”

“I chose to awake the goddess that lived in me. because why would a girl want to be treated like a princess or a queen when there is a rare species that prefers to be treated like a myth. for why would I want to be a mere mortal, if there is a goddess that lives in me? I realized the immense potential of the woman in me, and I made a choice to become her, the woman I yearned to be.”


  • Posted 30th August 2014

My newest book love. The Chamber of Curiosity: Apartment Design and the New Elegance is like having all of my favorite ELLE Decor and AD homes in one book. Since visiting so many different european cities I’ve been obsessed with seeing whats going on inside of the buildings and how differently (and similarly) people around the world choose to live and decorate.

I was particularly pleased to find many of the homes I’ve pinned are featured with more images and details so I feel like I will always have them, whereas I occasionally stress over the thought that my pins could and will disappear at some point in the future. oh well haha.


  • Posted 11th August 2014

whatever you do in your life, if you do it for a long time, you get simple in the end.
being simple sounds very easy, but it’s one of the most difficult things to do.
because simple is not just about being simple.
-moon rhee

Europe 04 / Germany

  • Posted 11th August 2014

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I didn’t spend much time in Germany, it was essentially just a long rode trip between the Netherlands and Switzerland. I would love to return one day to visit Munich and Berlin, but until then I only have memories of the lush green hills and enchanting black forest.


  • Posted 10th August 2014

Linda Evangelista shot by Steven Meisel for Vogue Italia, February 1989.  
Sensuality, vibrancy, and heat all in encompassed in one shoot. Via Karla Deras


  • Posted 10th August 2014


even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.
-c.s. lewis

it’s hard for me to chit chat with people because the things i generally want to discuss most never even think about.



  • Posted 5th August 2014

After spending the last week working a photoshoot in miami, i’m loving everything about this tropical set designed by Andrea Ferrari and Studiopepe for ELLE Decor Italy.

Europe 03 / Amsterdam

  • Posted 21st July 2014

Brussels and Amsterdam definitely surprised me the most—I had no idea what either looked like so I went with zero expectations and fell completely in love.
The first few hours the only word I could think to describe everything was “cool.” I know that seems so simple, but literally the entire vibe of the city was just chill and the utopian mash-up of cultures and styles was so laid back and effortless.

I went on a walking tour of the Red Light District my first night in Amsterdam and it was such an eye-opening experience. but i loved how open-minded and practical the dutch people are. that whole “people are going to do it anyway so we may as well come up with a smart safe way for it to work (and benefit us)” mentality. not to mention all of the amazing concept shoppes tucked in and around the area.
…then I discovered their vintage book markets and completely lost my shit. I wanted to bring home at least 20 books and ended up mailing some home before leaving the city. it’s basically {one} of the main reasons I can’t wait to get back.


  • Posted 17th July 2014

I am BEYOND obsessed with Missoni’s FW14 campaign featuring Joan Smalls. Art, architecture, AND fashion!? yaass.


  • Posted 12th July 2014

im obsessed with watching artists work.

i love the movements and the passion on their face that lets you know something intense is going on behind their eyes. or maybe not. maybe they’re so lost in their work that its allowing them temporary relief from the world.
the studio tour photo shoots are my absolute favorite part of the magazine process & they always leave me aching for more workspace of my own.

i have so many ideas bouncing around at once that i need to have multiple canvases set up so i can do them all at the same time, but also other areas where I can experiment with my collages and other things. I set up a mini workspace in my garage but its still missing that certain je ne sais quoi to get me in there. i realize this is just an excuse but I’m fine with that for now. my art is so deep-rooted into my being and the way i see the world and images and everything that I know whether I work everyday or take a 5 year hiatus it will always be there.
ps— totally crushing on fly art productions. all images from here or here.


  • Posted 12th July 2014


Over the course of my trip I read 5 books selected to go along with the places I was visiting. While traveling through France, I read Perfume: The Story of a Murderer; which was set in the slums of eighteenth-century Paris. It was creepy, very strange, slightly disturbing but very passionate, tragic and beautifully written. and while in the French Riviera I was able to visit the Fragonard factory, one of the oldest parfumeries in the world (I believe) that happened to be playing the movie version of the book (lol).

Here are a few of my favorite excerpts:

He drank in the aroma, he drowned in it, impregnating himself through his
innermost pores, until he became wood himself;
he lay on the cord of wood like a
wooden puppet, like Pinocchio, as if dead, until after a long while, perhaps a
half hour or more, he gagged up the word “wood.” He vomited the word up, as if
he were filled with wood to his ears, as if buried in wood to his neck, as if
his stomach, his gorge, his nose were spilling over with wood.”

“Or why should smoke possess only the name “smoke,” when from minute to
minute, second to second, the amalgam of hundreds of odors mixed iridescently
into ever new and changing unities as the smoke rose from the fire … or why
should earth, landscape, air—each filled at every step and every breath with yet
another odor and thus animated with another identity—still be designated by just
those three coarse words. All these grotesque incongruities between the richness
of the world perceivable by smell and the poverty of language were enough for
the lad Grenouille to doubt if language made any sense at all.”

“And what was more, he even knew how by sheer imagination to arrange new
combinations of them, to the point where he created odors that did not exist in
the real world.”

“Perhaps the closest analogy to his talent is the musical wunderkind, who has
heard his way inside melodies and harmonies to the alphabet of individual tones
and now composes completely new melodies and harmonies all on his own. With the
one difference, however, that the alphabet of odors is incomparably larger and
more nuanced than that of tones; and with the additional difference that the
creative activity of Grenouille the wunderkind took place only inside him and
could be perceived by no one other than himself.

“He was not out to make his fortune with his art; he didn’t even want to live
from it if he could find another way to make a living. He wanted to empty
himself of his innermost being, of nothing less than his innermost being, which
he considered more wonderful than anything else the world had to offer.
And thus
Baldini’s conditions were no conditions at all for Grenouille.”


  • Posted 8th July 2014

I discovered Zing in a shop near the Arc de Triomphe in Paris. It was wrapped in plastic so i had no idea what was inside or where it came from, but I was obsessed with the cover and it’s subtitle “a curatorial crossing”.
I discovered later that it’s been based + published in Brooklyn since 1995.

I love their manifesto:

“zingmagazine came out of the idea that within certain disciplines, artistic and otherwise, various cross-references occur, both with individuals and the material of their particular interest. Rather than remaining isolated and apart, either through an unaware and uninformed (or aware and informed) malaise, there is a need to commingle arenas.

By establishing a forum of collaborative exchange, zingmagazine examines points of both similar and dissimilar articulations. Like sets and subsets in a mathematical diagram, having similar and opposite properties, parts of the exchange will share epiphanies while others will securely diverge.

But in the examination of these current issues, born out of the curatorial collaborative spirit, zingmagazine reaches for the crossing point, and it is from this “crossing” where fiction meets poetry for lunch, theorists mingle with artists over which they are, and while we all assume new boundaries with an excess of technology in the modern world that we find our inspiration. Likewise, it is from this crossing that the title is honed.

The format of zingmagazine is comprised of rotating curatorial projects. Each curator is invited to create a context of their choosing for each issue. A myriad of different disciplines are explored in each issue from architecture, design, fiction, poetry, drawing, photography, video, music, fashion, as well as a special projects including books, posters, and CDs. Lack of parameters or limits is the impetus, with the idea that the creative impulse, within each of the curators/disciplines, will produce individual projects both of the curators and the participants.”

Devon Dikeou New York, New York 1995

This issue is from August 2013 so I hope they’re putting out a new one soon.

Europe 02 / Paris

  • Posted 7th July 2014

so paris.

a status I posted on FB pretty much sums it up: “I think one of the things I like best about Paris is that it has so many buildings, doors and statues in all my favorite shades of green, lined in black white or cream with gold accents. Everywhere.”
Honestly though, it kinda broke my heart. I think I built it up so much from what I’ve seen that when I was actually there and it rained majority of the time without my lover it just wasn’t the experience I’d dreamt about. (unlike amsterdam — which I’ll get to later— that I had no expectations for and it was insane).

That said, I do think that Paris was insanely beautiful and romantic and I cannot wait to come back someday with b and an unplanned schedule so we can just stroll and hold hands and make-out like all the other couples. i couldn’t get enough of the gold, chipped paint, ornate ceilings, gorgeous marble, strange details.
My favorite experiences in Paris:
1. the late afternoon river cruise (+banana/nutella crepes) that turned into a glittering night atop the eiffel tower.
2. getting caught in the rain in the gardens of versailles.
3. wandering through the Louve and accidentally running into a few of my favorite paintings (because i didn’t realize/remember thats where they lived).
4. the evening in montmartre. literally was a movie— and certainly one of my favorite places.
5. running into slam productions (after seeing posters all over belleville) and walking out with 2 posters and a shirt gifted by the owner.
i remember throughout the trip having a hard time staying in the present. everything was so surreal, i kept telling myself this is actually happening right now. this is where i am. it sounds crazy, but it was going by so fast and i was seeing so many different things that it was hard to truly capture each moment and remember the details. and look, now it’s over. almost as if the present is the past and the future is the present.
bon voyage.


  • Posted 7th July 2014


Summer Sundays often have a way of turning into those lazy lounge days where I feel perfectly OK doing nothing. It’s on these Sundays that I usually drift to that pile of daydreams and bounce them around with b and today was no different. Once he dozed off I began catching up on a few of my favorite { blogs } and came across one that resonated perfectly with my current state:

“There are certain kinds of success most people find easier to quantify. They usually involve better than average salaries, stock options, and benefits. I have none of those, sometimes I allow myself to feel like a loser because of it. Some creative people I know get by this way because they have no other choice. It’s even harder to stay my course knowing I have a corporate resumé to default to if I give up my real dreams again. Trust me, the only thing harder than working over time at a day job for a measly ten vacations days a year is to wake up every morning and realize you are the only captain of your ship. You can stay in bed all day wondering if you’re really as brave as you thought. I would be lying if I did not admit I struggle almost every to get out of bed for that very reason. There is no timesheet, no punch card to clock in or out, and confidence or sense of certainty a “think positive” infographic on Pinterest can instill in you. Even so, you have to get out of bed and do the best you know how and just have faith. 2014 has been infinitely more challenging on an emotional level than I thought, doubt seems to be a strong theme. But the only thing I’m more afraid of than being lost or having “failed” by the end of this year is not living the life I really want to live. That is the state of me. All that to say, I’m doing away with this bullshit one year rule and replacing it with a lifetime.

Read the full post by Haleigh of Making Magique here.

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  • Posted 28th June 2014

the only way to deal with an unfree world
is to become so absolutely free
that your very existence is an act of rebellion.
-albert camus

all i’ve been listening to lately is jhene aiko, rochelle jordan and tinashe.

Europe 01 / London

  • Posted 28th June 2014

Ahh London. My first international experience. Looking back I cannot think of a better city to have started my trip. I instantly fell in love with everything about it and at the time falsely assumed that it was because I hadn’t seen everything else and was just excited to be there. From this side I can say London is still one of my favorite cities—top 5 for sure—and I cannot wait to return.
I vividly remember the taxi ride (on the opposite side of the road) from the airport to our hostel and immediately noticed how stylish and posh everyone was. The street style was by far my favorite here. and my god, the architecture. I have 100s of doorway, ceiling detail, and store front images that I flitted around snapping with probably as much grace as a crazy person and the same crazed facial expression.
Within a day I was trying to convince B to let us live there and began fantasizing about what it would be like to wake up in London everyday and get to do life their way. How long would it take for me to become immune to it’s charm?
I miss walking. as in walking as my form of transportation vs. going on a walk for exercise. I miss being in a place that allows me to physically become a part of the city and forces me to be outside therefore seeing and experiencing all of the details we miss from the comfort and safety of our cars.
There is no way for me to describe my experience in a way that makes sense or even fully captures my feelings, what I did/saw, or the city itself. so i think these posts will just contain random thoughts I had at the time and not really focus on any of the details. but to round this first one out here are a few of my favorite moments in London:

1. (Sherlock Holmes?) themed bicycle ride I saw across from St. Paul’s Cathedral.
2. Fish & Chips the second night at a random bar. I don’t eat seafood so this was big and it was delicious.
3. Wandering through the spitalfields market where I got a vintage black kimono that I’m obsessed with.
4. Meeting up with two of my best friends from LA.
5. and obviously visiting the Harry Potter Studios.. it was completely surreal.


  • Posted 28th June 2014


In fact a mature person does not fall in love, he rises in love. The word ’fall’ is not right. Only immature people fall; they stumble and fall down in love. Somehow they were managing and standing. They cannot manage and they cannot stand – they find a woman and they are gone, they find a man and they are gone. They were always ready to fall on the ground and to creep. They don’t have the backbone, the spine; they don’t have that integrity to stand alone.

A mature person has the integrity to be alone. And when a mature person gives love, he gives without any strings attached to it: he simply gives. And when a mature person gives love, he feels grateful that you have accepted his love, not vice versa. He does not expect you to be thankful for it – no, not at all, he does not even need your thanks. He thanks you for accepting his love. And when two mature persons are in love, one of the greatest paradoxes of life happens, one of the most beautiful phenomena: they are together and yet tremendously alone; they are together so much so that they are almost one. But their oneness does not destroy their individuality, in fact, it enhances it: they become more individual.

Two mature persons in love help each other to become more free. There is no politics involved, no diplomacy, no effort to dominate. How can you dominate the person you love? Just think over it. Domination is a sort of hatred, anger, enmity. How can you think of dominating a person you love? You would love to see the person totally free, independent; you will give him more individuality. That’s why I call it the greatest paradox: they are together so much so that they are almost one, but still in that oneness they are individuals. Their individualities are not effaced – they have become more enhanced. The other has enriched them as far as their freedom is concerned.

Immature people falling in love destroy each other’s freedom, create a bondage, make a prison. Mature persons in love help each other to be free; they help each other to destroy all sorts of bondages. And when love flows with freedom there is beauty. When love flows with dependence there is ugliness.

— Osho


  • Posted 20th June 2014

What a gorgeous place! this little gem is the Madrid home of interior designer Mariam Alia. Madrid is now one of my favorite cities and seeing this home just adds to the magic of what I imagined was hidden in all of those fabulous apartment buildings.

i’m still sorting through my 8000+ images from the trip. tales to come! Images Via Desire to Inspire


  • Posted 15th June 2014

9 countries. 20+ cities. 30 days.

Somewhere between Zaragoza and Madrid — Two thoughts written towards the end of my trip. I’ll go through and recount each city with images as I see fit. But these are the most honest feelings of my overall experience.

The only purpose I now see for wealth is to travel. If you have a lot of money and choose to only spend it on material things instead of travel and experiences you’re foolish and have no idea what you’re missing. I no longer have a desire to save for things, of course there will always be stuff I want, but now all I really really want is to travel again. To be free to wander through cities at leisure. I may never be staying in the most luxurious hotels and dining at those restaurants. But I can see them. I can get next to them. I can go to the bars and people watch. I want to see everything the world has to offer. When I’m an old woman I want to be elegant, but I also want to leave my grandchildren with exotic stories of the places I’ve been.

I want to be in love, create art, and see the world. This trip was the best thing for me. Going back to LA right now would only pause what I need to do and create more confusion for my inner self. Perhaps in another chapter of my life I’ll end up there again — but right now as I’m riding through the Spanish countryside reminiscing on my strolls through Venice and how large my eyes got at the sight of the French Riviera.. it all makes sense to me now. All I have to do is go live it.
Another reoccurring thought I’ve had as the trip winds down is the fact that I feel like I could keep going for a few more weeks, months, years? But I see that it would be impossible to maintain a relationship. I barely get to talk to b or to my family, but I don’t feel lonely. I miss him when I see something amazing and wish he could see it too, and I’m sure if I stayed in one place for a long time I would really feel the separation, but as I jump from place to place it’s like the world is on pause and the only thing that matters is what I’m doing that day or getting some rest. I’ve noticed myself not really wanting to tell my friends and fam what I’ve done each day, I feel annoyed as if it’s too personal and I just don’t feel like reiterating it (especially after I spend hours journaling) and it’s too detailed too vibrant too intense too emotional to try to explain through a text or email. I want to know more words so I can describe it better, but then I also want to keep it for myself. And I can barely remember what I did or where I was a few days ago.

They say a picture tells a thousand words, but honestly no one knows what I was doing when these pictures were captured, the circumstances, if it was staged or candid. How can I possibly share my experiences with someone unless they saw it too. I kinda love the feeling that I could disappear into the world and just keep traveling with no idea what’s going on around me.

My life back home seems so quaint and comfortable compared to what I’ve been doing and seeing. It’s unreal. But it kind of scares me too, why do I feel this way? Why do the things that are so important to me seem less important while I’m here? My reason for wanting to go (what I was seeking inspiration for) is still here. I still have the vision and constantly snap pictures to remember, but it seems so small. so separated from me. Does that mean they really aren’t that Important? Or no? Am I really that passionately in love? I’m not sure. Maybe I’m just thinking about it too hard.

I am excited to get back home and to my regular life to see what kind of shift has actually taken place. My brain is literally bursting with so many thoughts. I’m eager to look back through my pictures and read my journal to relive each place I visited and turn these inspirations into work and style and ways of living.


Sneak peek at the pile of the loot I drug home:
First image is of me at the W Barcelona and the second was taken on the street in Firenze, Italy.


  • Posted 15th May 2014

don’t be so easily defined.
“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.” – Oscar Wilde

today i leave.


  • Posted 10th May 2014

It’s official! I will no longer be the last person on the planet (in my age bracket) that hasn’t been across the world.. or even out of the country for that matter (the bahamas doesn’t count!) It always surprises people when I tell them I really haven’t been very far. Every time a travel opportunity comes along I jump for it, but as far as taking a big leap it has always seemed like a far off dream that would take years before I could achieve— an exclusive membership club I didn’t have access to.

Not any more!

After a few crazy (and I mean crazy, I will spare the details— but thank GOD there are people who love me) days of thinking and being neurotic (ie. ben stiller in along came polly) I decided to push back my return to the City of Angels and take a 30-day Grand Tour of Europe… leaving next week!! and only about 3 weeks following the initial thought.

I knew that reading the alchemist would do terrible things to my brain and like it said “when a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream.” This has been so true— once I made the decision everything kinda fell into place, almost as if it had been set-up to work in my favor before I’d even considered it.

Of course once I get back I’m going to think I’m a travel blogger (kidding, kinda.) so I want to make nice little lists and take pictures of all the things I packed and places I visited and the things I learned for future travel.

Now to the fun part…
Where I’m going: London (United Kingdom), Paris (France), Brussels (Belgium), Amsterdam (Netherlands), Heidelberg (Germany), Lucerne Region (Switzerland), Venice, Rome, Florence (Italy), French Riviera, Provence (France), Barcelona, and Madrid (Spain)! There are obviously a ton of other cities I’m dying to visit; Milan, Positano, Berlin, Basel, etc. but I will save them for next time (and there will definitely be a next time) when I stay longer in the cities I really liked… or move to Rome ha who knows.

I had the option to visit Greece, but it would have meant losing out on Spain, so again, another time… and more likely when I try to do Egypt (my true bucket-list trip) and Turkey.

I have this visual of the things I want to wear, the books I’ll read, the museums I’ll walk through, but we all know that things rarely turn out the way we expect so even though I think I’ll come back all different from the things I’ve seen and experienced — I’m just going to pack up my little stuff and go with the flow, fully enjoying each moment and the fact that I will have a month to do absolutely nothing work related, just go-go-go— my favorite thing ever!


The books I’m taking:
Ghana Must Go by Taiye Selasi
Perfume by Patrick Suskind
An Italian Affair by Laura Fraser
Graduates in Wonderland by Jessica Pan & Rachel Kapelke-Dale

digitally… against my own wishes lol.


  • Posted 9th May 2014

A girlboss is someone who’s in charge of her own life.
She gets what she wants because she works for it.
As a #girlboss, you take control and accept responsibility.
You’re a fighter— you know when to throw punches and when to roll with them.
Sometimes you break the rules, sometimes you follow them, but always on your own terms.
You know where you’re going, but cant do it without having some fun along the way.
You value honesty over perfection.
You ask questions.
You take your life seriously, but you dont take yourself too seriously.
You’re going to take over the world, and change it in the process.
You’re a badass.
I was super excited for Sophia Amoruso’s new book, #GIRLBOSS, and so far it hasn’t disappointed. Not a memoir or a feminist manifesto, just a story about what happened to her and the explosion of Nasty Gal. Her carefree, straight forward, ballsy writing style definitely reminds me of Kelly Cutrone’s books. While it hasn’t inspired me as much in a dreamy way like the alchemist, it is a true story about an under 30-something female that created her dream job without following societies guidelines. It’s fascinating. Here are a few of my favorite quotes…
“I don’t want you to look up, because all that looking up can keep you down. The energy you’ll expend focusing on someone else’s life is better spent working on your own. just be your own idol.”
“I always suspected that I was destined for, and that i was capable of something bigger. that something turned out to be Nasty Gal, but you know what? I didn’t find Nasty Gal. I created it.”
“Who cares if a tree falls in a forest and no one hears it? The tree still falls. If you believe that what you’re doing will have positive results, it will— even if it’s not immediately obvious. When you hold yourself to the same standard in your work that you do as a friend, girlfriend, student or otherwise, it pays off.”

there are secret opportunities hidden in every failure.
all quotes by Sophia Amoruso, Founder, CEO and Creative Director of Nasty Gal
My overall opinion on #GIRLBOSS is that it’s the same success story and advice we’ve heard and been fed over and over just in a different setting. I don’t mean that in a bad way at all. I think that it just further proves the mantra we all repin regularly— good things come to those who hustle.
Extras! A few of my favorite spreads from The WILD Magazine.


  • Posted 8th May 2014

I am seriously digging this girl’s lovely home— and the fact that when she went on a tour of Egypt and Jordan she says that “the experience was so incredibly humbling { I } literally cried while seeing the Pyramids” means she is definitely a kindred spirit (because I completely see that being my reaction). Her space is airy and light, but still feels luxe and well traveled without being overly decorated. perf.

See the full interview and tour at The Every Girl and read her blog NoMad Luxuries.
“travel is more than the seeing of sights; it is a change that goes on, deep and permanent, in the ideas of living”
– Miriam Beard
Aidan or Big?

I’ve always been drawn to the Big(s) of the world, but as Carrie says, “I’ve done the merry-go-round, I’ve been through the revolving doors, I feel like I met somebody I can stand still with for a minute”. I finally decided to stand still, and I couldn’t be happier. – Yana Puacas


  • Posted 3rd May 2014

you were born to be a rainstorm,
to send your voice throughout the night,
to sing your song with falling raindrops,
to break the darkeness with your light,
you were born to show raw beauty,
to wash the dirt out from their eyes,
but the whole world ran for cover,
when you opened up your skies,
so you made your thunder silent,
and learnt to bite your rainy tongue,
you gave them what they thought they wanted,
you gave them life with endless sun,
but as they watched their lives grow weaker,
watched as their leaves turned brown and dry,
they wished they didn’t take for granted,
your booming presence in the sky,
you were born to be a rainstorm,
to be chaotic and be bold,
to show there’s beauty in the knowledge,
that you cannot be controlled,
because you might think you’re not needed,
life without you is the same,
but nothing beautiful would ever grow,
if it wasn’t washed with rain.

e.h. via—

i loved her
not for the way
she danced
with my angels
but for the way
the sound of her name
could silence
my demons

-christopher poindexter


  • Posted 30th April 2014

Last weekend I went to the Counterpoint Music Festival near Atlanta, Georgia.
I haven’t been down to GA (my hometown) in a few years so it was great to be back. The highlight of the trip was obviously getting to see Outkast perform their 3rd epic performance together in almost 10 years—the first 2 being at Coachella the weekends prior.
Other than that I didn’t have time for much, although I did squeeze in a trip to Lennox and The High Museum of Art (that i ran through with about as much grace as a person stranded in the desert running towards an oasis), but overall the entire trip reminded me how much I love being from Georgia… and just HOW different it really is from North Carolina.
checkout the full lineup from the weekend here.
Please forgive my lovely iphone photos and the fact that I didn’t record any of the artist’s names. I’m pretty sure a google image search of any of these would pull up all of the credits. All photos taken at the High Museum of Art in Atlanta.

I realize the fact that this entire post is about the festival, but the imagery is only of the museum (which gave me a creativity boost i was starved for) because all of my festival photos are blurry crazed concert images from the center of a bagillion people — an experience I will forever remember, but rather not share here.


  • Posted 22nd April 2014

“If she’s amazing, she won’t be easy. If she’s easy, she won’t be amazing. If she’s worth it, you won’t give up. If you give up, you’re not worthy… Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.”
-Bob Marley
Surround yourself with people that reflect who you want to be and how you want to feel, energies are contagious.


  • Posted 16th April 2014

Lauren Santo Domingo’s Paris duplex via Design Chic.


  • Posted 12th April 2014

I finally got around to purchasing Irreverent by Carine Roitfeld after watching her documentary, Mademoiselle C, which details the production of her first issue of the CR Fashion Book.
Honestly, I haven’t been hit with a girl crush / icon / inspirational obsession / etc. in a long long time. I realize I’m a bit late to the game learning about her (especially since i have two copies of CR) but after watching the movie it was like a compulsion i HAD to have the book immediately and learn as much about her as I could. When it arrived earlier this week I was completely blown away. It’s sublime.
Interestingly enough I’ve been shying away from fashion— (completely inspired by this Phoebe Philo for Céline post HERE and this trend post from the Manrepeller HERE) sticking to black, white and neutrals (which i realize is a trend right now, but i digress) and focusing more on art, design and interiors. BUT I literally devoured this book. I read every page (which I rarely actually do with magazines/coffee table books) but it was so clean. chic, interesting and erotic.
These are my favorite quotes:

“I don’t know if I’m a Yves Saint Laurent woman or not, but I hate when people compliment me on what I’m wearing. It was Saint Laurent who said that you should compliment a woman for her beauty and not for her clothes, which are only supposed to set off her beauty.”

Q: What do you attribute your success to? Can you define it, or is it a mystery to you?
“There’s certainly something mysterious about it. It’s not my place to say whether I have any talent or not, but success is a mix of hard work and good luck. I met the right people at the right time, but I also knocked on the doors that I knew were the hardest to enter. I never chose the easy option. I have always gone after the most interesting things, even if they are the most difficult. Always!”

Q: Do you see yourself as an artist?
“I don’t see myself as an artist. In a way, I envy the freedom artists have. Artists can push themselves beyond their limits, in pursuit of their ideas and their vision, even if they are inhabited by demons that can also play tricks on them. I would love to have that purely creative side. But fashion has allowed me to collaborate with artists of all difference kinds—writers, filmmakers, as well as genius hair stylists and make-up artists.”
Q: How do you manage to preserve your creativity?
“Although I’ve very diplomatic, I’ve learned not to back down when it comes to my own vision. I stay inside a bubble so I can focus on my own creativity and not feel burdened by outside influences or pressure. I don’t live in a fairy tale— anything but. But I remain inside my private, insulated space where I find my inspiration and my freedom.”

Q: Do you think that real fashion has been absorbed by fashion photography?
“Street fashion is real fashion now. Ultimately, that’s what is driving the industry. The kind of fashion that I love exists only in images, where it becomes part of a world of dreams and fantasies. Only a few great eccentrics can wear it. But chasm doesn’t bother me, because I think there’s a tension– or a continual dialogue— going on between street fashion and the fashion depicted in photographs, which very few woman can afford to wear for obvious financial reasons, as well as certain social pressures.”

“But luxury isn’t an easy thing to do these days. Luxury has become so vulgar. Luxury items have become the symbol of nouveaux riches, of new fortunes made out of IT and the dot-com industry, and by people who don’t have experience with this kind of culture appropriating historically luxury items.”
Have I contradicted myself? Not too long ago I told my mom that I think my goal in life is to be an elegantly aged woman. After learning more about Carine, I think that’s true.


  • Posted 12th April 2014

“Try to say nothing negative about anybody for three days, for forty-five days, for three months.
See what happens to your life.” – Yoko Ono


  • Posted 6th April 2014

Friday I picked up copies of Dazed, Porter, and The Hunger then the new issue of Interview came in the mail. While they are very different publications, the editorials and typography in each were stunning! A feast for my eyes. I mean really, Hunger printed 20 different covers.

Another hilarious encounter with me caught on film here.
My new favorite design focused tumblr. i spent a good hour scrolling through the images.


  • Posted 6th April 2014

thoughts on a sunday.

i had a coffee with a new friend the other night and he asked why i don’t market myself. i had a weird answer at the time, but thinking more about it i feel like what i’m writing now (even though they’re published online) are personal thoughts (that could possibly inspire someone who’s thinking the same) but ultimately they are for me. if i attempted to market myself and put for instance my blog “out there” i would immediately no longer be writing thoughts for myself because i would know that i have an audience so i’d filter myself.

i always love the first work of artists/writers/etc. the best because they were hungry. they’d been having thoughts for years so it’s natural and fire. once they get an audience they have to think about what other people would like instead of what they like and feel.

i obviously don’t think this happens to everyone, but i notice it a lot more than i don’t.

and to further prove my point. when we first starting working on the magazine we wanted to do zero marketing and even if no one liked us or came to our first event it wouldn’t have mattered because we put out a product we believed in and were happy with. as we continued publishing i definitely noticed myself at least thinking “we cannot print that” or “oh we need more of this less of that” etc.. see where im going with this? i feel like thats a huge reason i was able to let go so easily because even though i get so much life from magazines it no longer felt like me. mine. it was now for someone else.

i have so much work i never release because i feel no desire to. i don’t need “likes” or comments to do more of it or feel confirmation/assurance my shit is good (or isn’t). it makes my soul happy. my hands and eyes just need it. they must move. must create. must see.

while watching vicky cristina barcelona.


  • Posted 5th April 2014

this morning i read the alchemist by paulo coelho from start to finish.
the reason i bought it in the first place was because of this post, but i never got around to it, then for some reason early this morning i had a strange desire to start reading it— even though i have a list of things to get through today, it felt important that i take this time to relax and read, and im glad that i did.
I wrote this post while reading, so it’s weird and unorganized, but I didn’t want to rewrite anything since these are the thoughts that flowed as I went.
it made me wonder if i actually want to do the things i dream of or if like the crystal merchant I just want to dream about them.

“it’s the thought of mecca that keeps me alive. that’s what helps me face these days that are all the same… i’m afraid that if my dream is realized, i’ll have no reason to go on living.”

i should be a professional daydreamer because i’m obsessed with planning ideas. i have these grand dreams that are things i could actually do, but am i just content with dreaming about what i would do or do i plan to actually do them?

he goes on to say a few paragraphs later—

“you have been a real blessing to me. today, i understand something i didn’t see before: every blessing ignored becomes a curse. i don’t want anything else in life. but you are forcing me to look at wealth and at horizons i have never known. now that i have seen them, and now that i see how immense my possibilities are, i’m going to feel worse than i did before you arrived. because i know that things i should be able to accomplish, and i don’t want to do so.”

the boy goes on working for the merchant for 11 months and after he’s helped him grow his business and saved up money to buy back his sheep (i’m leaving out many details) he approaches the merchant to ask for his blessing to leave and the merchant tells him..

“i am proud of you. you brought a new feeling into my crystal shop. but you know that i’m not going to go to mecca. just as you know that you’re not going to buy your sheep.”

that said… what dreams of mine am i trying to convince myself i want. like what do i really want and what am i trying to convince myself of that im really not going to do. ugh my brain. why must you think this way lol.

but then i started thinking is god saying something deeper like this is what you’re trying to convince yourself that you want because it’s good for society and a regular nice life, but you and me BOTH know that’s not what you’re gonna do. you won’t be happy and im not going to allow it.

“.. he was no longer happy with his decision. he had worked for an entire year to make a dream come true, and that dream, minute by minute, was becoming less important. maybe because that wasn’t really his dream.”

“when a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream.”

i think that charlotte is my sheep. (ref. pg. 67) or better yet, maybe being a shepherd is being a graphic designer?
“he still had some doubts about the decision he had made. but he was able to understand one thing: making a decision was only the beginning of things. when someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision.”

“you must understand that love never keeps a man from pursuing his personal legend. if he abandons that pursuit it’s because it wasn’t true love.. the love that speaks the languages of the world.”

“one is loved because one is loved. no reason is needed for loving.”
“I love you because the whole universe conspired to help me find you.”


“My heart is a traitor… it doesn’t want me to go on”
“That makes sense, naturally it’s afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you’ve won.”
“well then why should i listen to my heart?”
“because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. even if you pretend not to have heard what it tells you, it will always be there inside you, repeating to you what you’re thinking about life and about the world.”

by the end of the story i’d definitely reconciled all the thoughts and questions above and think i should read this book at least once every year to check in on myself and see how same/different my thoughts are. I could go on and on or just retype the entire book here. haha. if you’re like me you should definitely go read or reread this simple story. it will change the way you see life.

“When you possess great treasures within you, and try to tell others of them, seldom are you believed.”


  • Posted 30th March 2014

And they don’t have no award for that.


  • Posted 24th March 2014

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R29 recently posted an interview with Meaghan Murphy of Book/Shop Oakland (one of my favs) and two of her responses really resonated with me and my feelings towards printed literature and reading in general. You can read the full interview here.

What are your thoughts on the argument that print is dead?
“Print will never die, in my opinion. The books I collect don’t get turned into e-books, and, even if they did, I would never use a device to read them. There is a certain intimacy in the bends of the spine and the penciled notes I might jot in the columns of my books. I also wouldn’t be able to part with the stacks of books I have on every available surface in my home. Perhaps this is due to my inclination to collect things, but I find it so pleasing being able to pick a recipe out of an old book of Elizabeth David’s or select a book to send home with a dinner guest.
“I recently read an article about a new app that will allow you to read a novel in 80 minutes and, I’m sorry to say, I just don’t understand the appeal to this. Reading is about the luxury of slowing down for an hour and transporting yourself to another place and time. It is the best kind of escapism. I really have no interest in, or understanding of, anyone who sees reading as nothing more than a chore.”
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What is your philosophy when it comes to literature?
“The best kind of literature never stops revealing its secrets to you. Each time you open it, it will speak something different. My favorite books are the ones I read once a year or once every few years — not because of the pleasure in it, but because there is still more to learn.”

well said.
photography by ashley batz.


  • Posted 20th March 2014

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looking back through the pictures taken my first days in LA before starting school, i can definitely tell that they are photos one would take during their first experience. the things i chose to capture and was fascinated by, are things that after living there, even for a month, i know i didn’t think twice about. but at the time it was so important to capture every detail.
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i’ve been trying to come up with a daily/weekly project that I can try to do during my time back on the left coast.. i want to try to devote at least 10-30 minutes to something creative (leave it to me to try and create some kind of control over a situation that i’m supposed to be just going with the flow of) outside of the regular creative things i’ll be doing.. like perhaps i’ll leave out my paints and mix a new set of colors everyday or make mini collages or make a list of things to take a snapshot of, idk. i get bored easily so it needs to be interesting but simple.. or i’ll have to come up with a new ritual every 2-3 mos. (or weeks realistically) ha kinda defeats the whole point right?
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circa october 2008


  • Posted 18th March 2014

i really just can’t. literally everything about Nicole Coehn of sketch42‘s new living room is like instant O. All of my fantasy interior dreams shown in a series of photos. See them all here.


  • Posted 17th March 2014

This past friday was the release party for our final volume of FOUR. It was certainly a bittersweet evening but incredibly special nonetheless. I was overwhelmed and deeply humbled (and have been throughout the entire experience) by how much support and praise we’ve received from the city, across the country and throughout the world. I mean we don’t know what we’re doing; we’ve just been pulling together things we like and whatever phase we’d been going through at the time (hence “can i live?”), and hoping that people like it and aren’t offended. But just seeing how excited and grateful everyone (and this is a very diverse “everyone”) was to be involved was really affirming and somewhat emotional but (sigh) just something I can’t put into words.

I’ve always said the magazine was created to showcase the amazing creatives that live in and around Charlotte. We just wanted to create opportunities for people (like us) who needed an outlet to work on something beautiful that will be kept on a coffee table or bookshelf, not flipped through and thrown out after a couple days. and that’s happened! Everything I wanted and more happened and was successful. FOUR could have easily been a drop in the ocean of new publications started every year, but we were blessed and highly favored to have gained a supportive loyal diverse following that is saddened to see us take a hiatus.

One of the guys I talked to understood my reasoning for leaving and he brought up the fact that people get complacent in Charlotte because it isn’t that huge of a city so it’s easy to settle when you’re at the top because once you find your niche there’s no competition. So the work starts to slack and become less remarkable. I never want that to happen. I will never settle with being “amazing” by Charlotte standards because I know better. Take it to a big city and then tell me what you think. I need time to get re-inspired to the point where its just pouring out of my hands, not just going through the motions. I want to crave life and experiences again. So don’t worry… I have B I G secret plans in the works for when I return to charlotte; I’m coming back on my worst behavior. and I’m hoping that there will be some friendly competition by then…

Sidebar: I was especially happy about the fact my beau was there and able to really see what I do, because he (who does not work anywhere near the design field), like my parents don’t really get it. All they see is me neurotic, always working, always stressing, always on the computer, super critical and freaking out about things that would seem ridiculous to anyone other than a designer. So the fact he got to witness the final outcome and actually hear what people were saying and how touched they were by our work was truly amazing.

Reasonable Doubt — Jay-Z
Saint Heron — Solange Knowles and Friends
G I R L – Pharrell Williams
Cupid Deluxe — Blood Orange

Photography captured by my lovely sister, Les Artise.


  • Posted 28th February 2014

The truly creative mind is inhumanly sensitive. To her a touch is a blow, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, and failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism, the overpowering necessity to create, create, create so that without the creating of music, poetry or books, her very breath is cut off from her. She must create, must pour out creation. By some strange, unknown, inward urgency she is not really alive unless she is creating.

Pearl S. Buck

Update: I was recently featured in a video interview with Charlotte Creative — check it out here!


  • Posted 14th February 2014

Circa 2009, Romance by Chris Craymer is undoubtably one of my favorite photography books. “The 200 page book is a personal project which Chris [had] been working on for several years—an evocative series of photographs capturing moments which perfectly articulate the true meaning of romance. The couples featured in the book are sometimes models, sometimes not, but they are all real couples in varying stages of what Chris has described as “pre mortgage love.” The 130 images, some in color, some in black and white, still-life alongside lifestyle, are wistful, lustful, joyful, and most importantly playful—the light, witty touch being an important element in much of Chris’s work.”

I couldn’t think of a more fitting post for today. I just purchased the book a couple months ago and was kinda waiting around to share it. Although B and I have been together for years I feel like we’re still in this stage— and once we go past it I think this book will bring back those memories so we never forget.
Happy Valentine’s Day!


  • Posted 4th February 2014

Ahh the infamous Proust Questionnaire. This is one of my favorite interviews to read from others, it is far more interesting to me for some reason than a Q&A based on actual information about the person. I use it often in FOUR, but I’ve never answered it myself, so…

What is your name as you would like it to appear in the magazine?
Ciara Bird.

Where are you from and where are you now?
Los Angeles by way of Augusta, Georgia.. currently in Charlotte, North Carolina.

Your age.

What is your current state of mind?

Who are you and what would you like to be?
more artist, less designer.

What is your idea of perfect happiness?
b—with warm sun, cool breeze and trails for hiking followed by an uninterrupted afternoon of painting, reading and leisure. essentially no feeling of “what am i supposed to be working on.”

What is your greatest fear?
“i want to be cured of a craving for something i cannot find and the shame of never finding it.”

Which living person do you most admire?
is it bad to say Beyonce? without going into depth i just feel like she sums up my ideal of imperfect womanhood perfectly in her own way; love, happiness, career, sexuality, classiness, motherhood, etc. yet she still comes off as humble.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
social anxiety. the glorification of busy.

What is the trait you most deplore in others?
don’t tell me who you are, show me. less talk more do.

What is your greatest extravagance?
publications. the easiest way to collect the art i cannot afford.

What music are you listening to right now?
im not.

Name a special day for you.
may 5.

What is your favorite movie without naming it?
two women, one man. paint, spain and woody allen.

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
i cannot.

What natural gift would you most like to possess?

What or who is the greatest love of your life?
b. but also freedom, I’m learning that one doesn’t balance out the other.

What do you consider your greatest achievement?
my faith.

Where and when did your parents first meet?
high school. toledo, ohio.

What would you do if you weren’t scared?
longterm travel.

What is your most treasured possession?
b. i can part with everything else.

What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
9-5 corporate design for an artist with no outlets.

Open a nearby book and copy the first line you like.
“Not just a plan of action, vagabonding is an outlook on life that emphasizes creativity, discovery, and the growth of the spirit.”

Where would you like to live?
west coast.

What is your most marked characteristic?
my smile.

What is the quality you most like in a man?
charm, conversation, and curiosity.

What is the quality you most like in a woman?
happiness, conversation and charisma.

What advice would you tell your 15 year old self?
don’t worry— your skin will clear up and your hair will look good.

What do you most value in your friends?
conversation, honesty and support.

Who is your favorite artist, writer, musician?
kelly wearstler, audrey niffenegger, j.k. rowling, maxwell, jhene aiko

What would be the title of your memoir?
bird & bee.

What is your motto?
it takes the same amount of energy to wish as it does to plan.


  • Posted 28th January 2014

I am completely besotted with the hollywood home of Nicole Simone captured by Natalie Joos on Tales of Endearment (my fav). So much good, visit her post for the complete tour.
I cannot wait to be back.


  • Posted 28th January 2014

yea so my plan to photograph and post about all of my favorite books and zines is already off track pretty much due to the ridiculous number I accumulated (on a regular basis) all at once. overwhelmed haha, but so good.


  • Posted 9th January 2014

i think too much. i think ahead. i think behind. i think sideways. i think it all. if it exists, i’ve fucking thought of it.
winona ryder


  • Posted 30th December 2013

“I knew who I was this morning, but I’ve changes a few times since then.” —Alice in Wonderland

Twenty-thirteen was such an amazing year for me. Though I went from being super focused on a specific goal to once again feeling lost and unsure of my plans towards the end, I feel very confident and excited about what 2014 will hold for me. I pretty much summed up the year with my return post back in October so I want to focus on my new dreams, plans, and goals in no particular order (some vague, some specific) along with the quotes I want to carry with me.
Over all I want to travel a LOT more. get lost. make more art, see more art. ruin plans, make new ones. reach goals,
make new ones. maybe blog, maybe not. be young, disconnect, don’t worry. and continue to change my mind..

**all images are from my tumblr archive. if one is yours and you feel some typa way let me know!

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  • Posted 20th November 2013

I’ve been listening to Saint Heron and Sail Out pretty much on repeat for the last couple days.

I do not feel the fear of fallin,
I wanna fly

If it all goes well then I will

But what if I don’t?

-Jhene Aiko, 3:16am


  • Posted 10th November 2013

i’ve been so productive lately and as a result i’ve had an overflow of ideas that i needed to get out somehow— so i started making collages again. there’s something theraputic about moving around images and writing down thoughts with my hands verses a mouse and keyboard.

new collage work coming.


  • Posted 4th November 2013

Apparently I’ve been living under a rock because I’m just now discovering the work of Yayoi Kusama— “a reclusive, colorful, and endlessly intriguing character.” How I didn’t see her collaboration with Louis Vuitton last year—and fall in love then—or during college, is BEYOND me. but oh well. I’m ashamed. She’s amazing. I’m obsessed. and now I just have to decide which book to purchase.
God I hope I’m this fabulous (and still doing what I love) when I’m 80.
one, two, three, four, five


  • Posted 3rd November 2013

About a month ago I finished reading “Three things you need to know about rockets,” a memoir by Jessica Fox, and for the first time in a while I tore through the book and dogeared close to every other page. These are a couple of my favorite quotes/passages.. but the entire story is definitely worth the read.
“The artist’s life cannot be otherwise than full of conflicts, for two forces are at war within him; on the one hand, the common human longing for happiness, satisfaction and security in life and on the other, a ruthless passion for creation which may go so far as to override every personal desire… There are hardly any exceptions to the rule that a person must pay dearly for the divine gift of creative fire.” — Carl Jung
“When you choose one way out of many, all the ways you don’t take are snuffed out like candles, as if they’d never existed. At that moment all of Will’s choices existed at once. But to keep them all in existence meant doing nothing. He had to choose, after all.” — Philip Pullman, The Amber Spyglass
“it occurred to me,” I continued tentatively, “that the Holy Grail is not the treasure but the dream, like the carrot before the horse. It’s the impulse that gets you off the couch and propels your journey. The problem arises when you don’t allow your dream to change. In that case, if you seek it, hopefully you won’t find it.”
“Well, that would be a mid-life cries, wouldn’t it? You finally get what you want, but didn’t realize that the journey to getting it has informed who you are, so the grail you once dreamed about, that was supposed to bring perfect happiness — whether a car, house with a white picket fence or dream job — is, not likely, not going to make the current you feel fulfilled.”
The Hindu concept of Dharma came to mind, what I understood to mean that we each have a responsibility to follow our own path — unique to ourselves, our interests and talents — for by doing so we give the space and opportunity for others to do the same.
(Conversation copy omitted)
By leaving to follow my dream, I was making room for someone else to follow theirs.

The back cover is a bit cliche/wanderlusty BUT I love that kind of stuff. “A book for anyone who has ever thought “What if” — a true story about a woman who dared to follow her dreams..” perf.


  • Posted 3rd November 2013

Getting new magazines/books in the mail is literally as good as christmas to me. I recently picked up Man Repeller by Leandra Medine, The WAH Nails Book of Downtown Girls, MUUSE, and the Rookie Yearbook Two. Four COMPLETELY different publications, but delicious design goodness nonetheless. I especially love the rookie yearbook. I have the first one (of course) and wish these had been around when I was 13-16. I would have poured over pages (a la Amelia’s Notebook anyone?). Reading them now is definitely nostalgic– and in the back of my mind I’d love to hold on to them until my hypothetical daughter/niece hits her preteen years. HA.


  • Posted 22nd October 2013

My favorite feature in the latest issue of elle decor. “For French designer Jean-Louis Denoit, the assignment to create an estate in New Dehli from the ground up was the commision of his dreams. All it took to transform it into reality were ingenuity, patience, and a cadre of Indian craftsmen.”


UPDATED: The link to this feature wasn’t available online yet, but now you can read the story here.


  • Posted 17th October 2013


“Women like me do not fall gracefully,
we stumble over our spines, trip over
our vowels, and collapse into your arms.

Our hearts are open books,
Russian novels containing fifty pages
on the way your voice drifts across
the telephone wires each night.
Our hearts are first drafts,
unedited verses about each and every
person we have ever loved: the stranger
on the subway, the girl who gave us a balloon,
the boy who took our virginity
but not our heart.

Women like me will love you from a distance
of a thousand syllables while laying in your bed,
we will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible,
and when we leave you will finally understand
why storms are named after people.”
— Katrina, M.K.

Thanks Lauren. All images via tumblr.


  • Posted 14th October 2013

Mark Rothko, Untitled (White, Blacks, Grays on Maroon), 1963 — Image 2


  • Posted 12th October 2013

Domino magazine is back!! I know it’s been all over the web, but I finally picked up my copy and I’m beyond excited! Domino quit printing my first year in college (basically right after I feel in love with it) and since then I’ve collected back issues along with their special releases that would pop up every now and then. If you know anything about the back story (Michelle Adams, Lonny, etc.) then you’d understand why I love that its back so much and am so inspired by it’s return. Here are a few of my favorite features..
Thanks to their uber smart new website you can literally shop straight from the pages and easily pull your favorite pictures from every feature.
The Nate Berkus collaboration feature “True Colors” made by heart stop for a sec. Everything about that apartment mixed with the home of Ali Cayne is 100% me. love. love. love.
Magazine photos by me. Feature photography from Domino.


  • Posted 8th October 2013


“Luck is basically ambition. You have to have ambition, if you don’t have ambition luck won’t come either.” — Snask.
This will be my motto for the month. Watch the video here, Via Bekka Palmer.


  • Posted 6th October 2013


woah. hello, hi. it’s been over a year since I posted and a billion things have changed in that time. I finally moved back to Los Angeles, worked at a fashion company and joined up with Social Gypsy (lost myself, found myself)— then 6mos later moved BACK to Charlotte, started a magazine, moved in with my guy, got a kitten, started a new job.. and promptly decided to move back to Los Angeles (Spring 2014) to further my design career, have some adventures with the boy and just figure out what the hell I want to do.

I don’t plan to post everyday or even regularly, but I figure this is a better place to rant, document my magazine hoarding penchant, post random ratchet rap lyrics (sorry— guilty pleasure), design projects, inspirations and favorite quotes from books I’m reading.. If you’re interested I will always be more active on Pinterest, Tumblr, and Instagram.. but let’s see where this takes us.